IS MY EXISTENCE TRULY WORTH IT? TRULY WORTH ANYTHING AT ALL?

WHAT AM I FEELING RIGHT NOW?

IS THIS HEALTHY AT ALL?

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there used to be an entry here. it's gone now.

ENTRY002

oh, she just wanted to check on me from my behavioral center visit. that was like, last month.

i kinda feel bad. i was really paranoid for no reason. but yeah, the behavioral center was hell. i'm not going back there no matter what.

i guess i can't be all impulsive anymore. definitely not. cuz it winds me up in da center. and it sucks there.

i guess the higher points was that one big guy who would play chess with me. he was nice. i hope he's out now, he should be by now.

there was this girl who was wholely convinced she was pregnant and had to bear children right there. she would talk out loud to people that weren't there. but it wasn't in a believable way at all, i could see right through her. every single one of her behaviors was her seeing another patient and trying to outdo them. trying to be the craziest bitch in the ward, as if that's an achievement. what a weird somatoform bitch. HPD called, come get your daughter. lol.

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what the fuck do they want from me what could they possibly want from me

This is a joke this is a joke

am i getting a fucking callback or what

shes in such a major position yet is incapable of doing a good job

maybe i'll call again